Combat Fear & Unworthiness to Pursue Your Purpose
Apr 18, 2022
Sometimes you may have a big idea or you feel like you've been given a vision, a plan, or an idea from The Lord, that just seems too big or not doable for you.
You may have thoughts like, "Well, who am I thinking I can do [fill in the blank], I don't have the resources for that. Or all the things right?"
Any excuse or reason (and I don’t mean this in a condemning way), you can come up with to not pursue the thing that you feel God has given you the idea for, the plans for, can lead you to being disobedient and not pursuing your God given purpose.
What helped me continue to pursue this thing that I just still can't, and may not ever be able to fully wrap my head around the scale of, was thinking, “Okay, if I feel the Lord has given me this vision, these plans, then I certainly don't want to be disobedient and not pursue it”.
Throughout this process, the visions that He has provided to me have been so strong (visions for business, personal life, etc.) and in the big picture, I can’t even wrap my head around them but He has been such a gentleman. He just kind of trickled all the things in over time, and my goal has just been to take things as He gives them to me and walk in obedience.
I think it’s our job to act in faith, even when we might not have the whole picture or if we’re unable to completely understand it or wrap our minds around it we should continue to press into Him and keep pushing forward, even when it’s hard.
As you’re doing this, the enemy will throw everything at you that he can to derail God’s plans from happening. He will do anything he can to accomplish his goal, which is to get in the way of God’s manifestation from Heaven to Earth. But know that you have a book written in Heaven that God wrote just for you before you were even born. And in that book made just for you are the plans that He has for you and those plans are to prosper. I want those books that were written in Heaven, about me and my purpose, and what I'm to fulfill here on Earth, to manifest here on Earth as it is in Heaven. So I call it forth and you can too!
You can put that in some of your affirmations. I started to. And if you can't wrap your head around it, that’s okay. Again, what helped me was not wanting to be disobedient. I felt like, if I didn't just start one baby step at a time, one little thing at a time, 10 minutes there, 20 minutes there, three hours here, two hours there, then I truly felt like I was going to be walking in disobedience. And I certainly did not want that!
I think if you just take 10 minutes or an hour, and pursue that thing that He has given you a vision for, that excites you and that you're passionate about, I truly feel like He honors that. And over time, I can tell you (it has been three years so far) I really don't think much about myself in a negative way. I mean I am human, & I may question myself sometimes, but He has me in such an excited, passionate state that I don't really have a choice; I have to do this. And I have to help the people He’s called me to. But I very, very rarely think, "Well, who am I to do this?" Or, "Why would I... Who do I think I am to be able to pull this off or be able to orchestrate these things?" Or "Who am I to think that I can pull this all together? This is so much bigger than me”. Yeah, it is bigger than me. It's His.
So what are we going to do? Are we gonna just keep wallowing and staying in the negative? Are we going to stay in the condemning against self state? Or are we going to get to work? Are we gonna pursue the visions and dreams and passions that The Lord has given us?
It’s not failing to take 10 minutes a day instead of an hour. It’s not failing to put a project down and not pick it up again for three months. I thought it was, but it's not. Those are flesh mindsets that we're fighting and we have to come out of those mindsets and pray against those perspectives. It's God's time frame, not ours.
It may look completely different than we think it will but we just need to take one step at a time and let Him guide our path. I still have a passion for this mission, just like I did on day one (probably more, actually, as He has continued to develop this passion in me) and I’m still so excited to pursue it. That’s not flesh, that’s God.
I’m a go-getter and if this was just in my court and something I wanted to pursue versus something God is woven throughout, I would have left this journey a long time ago because I would have felt like I failed. But in the Spirit He sends little confirmations and connections along the way that help me know to keep going.
Sometimes those little confirmations can just put you in a state of worship. And when we worship Him it destroys the enemy. Worship is our warfare. One time I heard a verse of a song that was so beautiful. It basically said what kind of enemy can be taken down with a song? That was so anointed when he said that. How powerful!
Can we really fathom that? The enemy can be taken down with a song, with our own voice. So if those feelings of self doubt creep, lift up your voice in worship to The Father, and keep pursuing your God given purpose! Amen!
by Kelly Osment
Founder @theinspiredbelles
